Daring to be bad to become good

I am mediocre at writing and mediocre at composing music. Yet I still publish what I make.

I don't believe what I make to be good, and I'm aware of the shortcomings. Still I put in my best effort when I make stuff, and make it as good as I possibly can.

Because, how could I ever become better if I don't dare to be bad? I'm not afraid to show the struggle, and I welcome the criticism.

Sure I must still read and study. Refining, exploring, and sharpening my skills by myself. But if none is ever shown, it makes me the only lonely critic, blind to my own failures.

The goal is the struggle and challenge. I know that being wrong and making mistakes is one of the best way to improve. I want to get criticism, and want to embrace and learn from it even if it is painful. I don't want to outsource my thinking, but struggle through the process. Improvement for its own sake.

Maybe that shows it value at some point. Virtue is the goal for now, and that is good enough for me.